Introspection

So I have been thinking today.

And I think that I need to stop looking for this life that I don't have and just work for the one that I do have.

So yeah, it might be nice to get married, but I don't really want to worry about that. Like at all.

I'm just going to run my life.

I'm going to stop living for anyone else.

I'm fairly independent to begin with, and I think that, for better or for worse, that this change in focus may make me even more self-assured and independent.

Yesterday I was told, in essence, that my self-assured independence my in fact turn guys off of me. But I don't really care.

So. In living my own life, what do I want to do?

Major in Mechanical Engineering. Emphasis in Biomedical.

Do my best.

Hike. Make Thai food. Try being vegetarian again. Read good books. Grow a garden. Swim.

Go to India. And France. And Ireland. And everywhere else.

Go to the temple every week.

Read my scriptures every day.

Keep my body in a way that increases my options. A healthy body can go and do whatever it wants.

Participate in a Tough Mudder, or something similar, ideally with a team.

Move to Portland, or Seattle. or Crescent City.

Find service to give every day.

Run.

Have a dog.

Go by Eleanor.

Ride my bike more places than I drive my car.

Keep my hair how I want. Not how other people want.

Investigate Buddhism, and Hinduism

Do yoga.

Eat only delicious food. But not to the point of excess.

Give of myself.

Decide what I want. And make that happen.

Love others without hesitation or judgement.

Plan for myself--Live for everyone else.