Staying on the right path

So today I was fasting for direction in my life--direction concerning my personal life as well as direction concerning my academic career.

I also got a blessing.

You know what I came up with?

I don't need to worry about it right now. Any of it. All I need to worry about is my spiritual well-being. And maybe I'll have to worry about everything else later, or maybe it'll all fall into place. Regardless. I am going to do my best to be less concerned with either of those two things, and instead see if I can focus on just becoming my own personal best.

So some concerns I was having earlier today....

I was thinking about how I want to change my degree over to M.E. ....and honestly, the fact that mechanical engineers make good money straight out of college makes me nervous.

Mainly nervous that someday I will be extremely prideful.

Prideful because of my education or income. Too prideful to care for my own children. (heaven forbid. the thought makes my blood run cold)

I'm worried that if I continue in this path, I will be worse off for it.

Here's the thing. I like nice things. I like to be able to work hard and get what I want.

I never ever want to be the kind of person who is more interested in her money and career than her God.

So if I do continue on in this, I need to be extremely careful that no matter how busy I may be with school or work or both, that I am always putting the Lord first, and serving my fellow man.

I need to use my resources as the Lord would have me. If I find myself making a good amount of money, I need to use it for the Lord's work. Humanitarian Aid, missionary work. Christmas for those who can't afford it.

If I ever find myself successful, I never want to use that to hold myself above anyone. I want to use it to be a tool in God's hand, to be able to serve and love my fellow man.

Side note:-- Today, my friend's boy (not technically boyfriend) expressed that there is no way that I won't get married and said that I was sexy. It came up conversationally and he was not hitting on me. But it was kind of a surprising thing. But it made me feel a little more confident in my body.